Tayla has been in a "you must be by me, near me, and within sight of me" mode. Whether its me, her father, or grandma Sue, none of us can win. Heavens forbid one of us has to pee. Today I had that "Listen kid. Your just going to have to deal with it." moment. The dog needed to be let outside. Travis needed to go to work and I just needed a drink. She was left alone on her rug in the living room with her gazillion and one toys and she screamed. And Screamed. But I had that moment that I learned she will be ok. She can scream. Its going to happen.
And I smiled. Cause I'm growing as a mom as fast as she's growing. And I like it.
Just like I was fine this last weekend when she was being grumpy and was preparing for a nap but we really needed to get to the bank for a meeting. So I called Grandma. "Can she come sleep at your place?".
Since she was born she has only be left with someone baby sitting like 4 times other than daycare. And this time was the first time I didn't feel guilty about it. I didn't have to go to work. It wasn't a super important meeting. I just wanted to go to the bank without her screaming, to open accounts. And you know what. Its ok that she's not with me every moment she can. Its ok that some others would like to watch her for me. Its ok
We are going to be ok.
We've had a great February. My husband has not smoked in the last two weeks. He quit drinking about a month ago. Our relationship is improving. We are talking about baby number two. (not making, just talking :))
Here is a glimpse of highlights....
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| We ride in the cart like a big girl! |
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| We made our first midnight trip to the ER on Valentines day. Hello Croup. |
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| Travis and Tayla had this sent to work on Valentines day for me. I was in love with it! |
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| Tayla reading her first ever Valentine. Love her face! |
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| Trying SOOOOO hard to crawl |
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| Morning Smiles. |
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| Playing with her first baby doll! |
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| This smile melts my heart every morning. :) |
Our attempts to crawl caught on camera!
