A year in Review

2011 has been quite a year for us. The highlights?

• We moved into a new house. Well not new by any means but new to us!
• We got married.
• We found out we were expecting. 

I think that sums it up and I honestly think most of that happened in the last 6 months. We sure had a busy first part of the year planning all the showers, bachelorette/bachelor parties, etc. I will never be disappointed in the year 2011. 

2012 is already shaping up to be a good year. I'm due in July, Troy and Becky get married in October,  my sister will graduate in December. I'm excited.

We are ringing in the new year right with a party at Mike's, Travis's dad's place.

But first... another xmas party at noon.... ugh.

Christmas in a nut shell

6 Christmases down, one more to go.

I started on Friday since I as suppose to work the night shift by cleaning my house. I scrubbed every surface and hauled out numerous garbage bags. I think it was that out with the old and in with the new complex. LOL. I got super lucky and was placed on call so I got to stay home Friday night.

I woke up early Saturday morning with a scare. I was bleeding. It was nice dark, brown blood which told me it was from a bleed previously and I'm assuming it was from all my crazy cleaning and what not. But I was extra cautious. Travis freaked out some and that made me more nervous. We went over to my parents for a noon xmas and kept things low key. We had another chrismas at 5pm for dinner for Travis's mom's side. They were great parties, but I started cramping so I was excited to head home. I got a fabulous call that I was going to be on call for the second night in a row, YAHOO! That meant I wasnt going to have to go to work worrying about that bleeding. I tucked in early in case I got called in and slept good. We woke up Sunday and had two more christmases to go to.

We have one  more next weekend, but due to my day off today I took advantage of the time and took down all the xmas decorations in my house. It made me feel accomplished. But now I'm thinking a nap sounds fantastic.

No more bleeding and I hope it stays that way!

Forgotten Survey

I said I was going to do this every once in awhile, so figured it was time again.
How far along?  8weeks today
Total weight gain/loss? loss of 5lbs. Throwing up- not so fun.
Maternity clothes?  Put on a top today... not sure how this would have fit me with a belly but it works good now! LOL
Stretch marks? Lol, just the ones from me being overweight to begin with
Sleep? Pretty much any time I can sleep I'm doing it.
Best moment last week? The first Ultrasound! Awesome!
Movement?  Not even a little. Way to early!
Food cravings?  Fish. Any and all fish products. Which sucks since I'm limited on the amount I can have.
Gender? No clue, and I hope to not find out till delivery
Labor signs? No way... Not this soon I hope
Belly button in/out? In
What I miss:Mt Dew! or any soda at this point.
What I am looking forward to: My New OB apt with my Doctor.
Milestones: Passed all my tests including the 24hr urine. YEah!

Merry Christmas.. Let the parties begin...

So I am sitting here as Travis gets dressed so we can head out to our first of many many christmas parties. We have quite the extended family so it seems like more often then not we often dread the Christmas season due to all the running around. Doesn't help that my career choice means I work every weekend and holiday so going to these parties after a night of work can be like forcing myself to be all in Christmas spirits when all I want to do is find a pillow and a puppy to cuddle with.

Today I'm lucky, didn't have to work last night so we are headed off to parties one and two. Brunch one first then immediate family after.

The worst part of this morning? Finding clothes to wear. Seriously. At 8 weeks, and considering my starting weight I'm not necessarly showing yet but at the same time nothing fits my growing chest and behind. things just ain't fittin if ya know what i'm sayin.... bring on the maternity clothes for comfort please.

Well, sounds like he's up and moving.. better make sure he's actually getting ready...

Our first baby's first photo. HAHAHA. LOVE saying that. Everything looks good! Best part is.... There is only one!!

Bring it on!

Bring it on Christmas. I'm ready for you.

Seriously I'm not but lets be realistic. Work is going to suck. We lost four fellow nurses this/next week so I am scheduled to work most every day in the end of December. This nausea business and making it hard for me to concentrate at work and this head cold I'm dealing with on limited medications is like the icing on the cake. But what the hell. They say everything is always better if you look at it with a positive outlook. So thats what I am doing.

Working 12/14 days. Yeah.. Its gonna suck. Getting the 31st off as one of those days. I'll take it. Not that I get to drink, but hey, good times, lots of laughs, again I'll take it.

Christmas lights. Have I mentioned how much I love xmas lights. Got most of mine up for the year and let me tell ya...I love a good night with the fireplace on and the christmas lights a glowing.

So yes. This December is not going to be great. But Bring It. I'm ready.

9 months of hell?

I'm still pregnant. That's the best news I have today. I had to go off of my blood pressure medications because they were not pregnancy safe and since then my BP has sky rocketed again. I'm on yet another med to see if I can get it under control, but this still means that I fall under the category of High Risk. Great. That means many more tests. I get to do a lovely 24 hour urine after my first apt. A slight bonus? I get to have an early ultrasound done to verify everything is alright. That's always a good thing!

I am feeling nauseated most of the time but since I have lucked out and have not actually had to worry about throwing up I'm hoping this goes away after a short time. 

and the all time best-- a weekly questionnaire!

How far along?  4 weeks 6 days
Total weight gain/loss? 2 lbs. This might have a lot to do with the fact that its Thanksgiving week. LOL
Maternity clothes?  No wearing them but I have an awesome co worker who just gave me all hers and they fit perfectly so I cant wait to wear them!
Stretch marks? Lol, just the ones from me being overweight to begin with
Sleep? it all over the place. I want to go to bed early but then I'm getting up extra early. I don't like it.
Best moment last week? Getting to tell the families.
Movement?  Not even a little. Way to early!
Food cravings?  I had a serious KFC craving this week. No idea if it was pregnancy related or if it just sounded goo.
Gender? No clue, and I hope to not find out till delivery
Labor signs? No way... Not this soon I hope
Belly button in/out? In
What I miss:Mt Dew!
What I am looking forward to: My first OB appointment
Milestones:I talked with my OB doctor- totally helps that I work in her department :) And got my first appointments scheduled.

:)

The word PREGNANT appeared today. I'm grinning ear to ear let me tell ya...

If only the major cramping would go away so I felt better about this....

Meaning of words

How amazing how exactly four years ago I jumped up and down with excitement of the words not pregnant.

Today it makes me cry. Ugh. Bring on aunt flo so I can try again.

Thanking the above for a day on call

There is occasionally times in my job were if there is not enough patients for the number of nurses scheduled you get to sit home waiting for a patient to come in. It seems rarely that they do and you get a bonus day off. Since I live exactly 1 min too far away from the allotted time to come in if they call I cannot go a mile north but I can go south if I so choose. Most of the time I sit here in the house. A great excuse to get the house chores done for you can't really leave and its just plain boring otherwise. So here I sit.

This past weekend I worked the night shift again. It was so nice. We have a little baby in the isolette over the weekend, not really sick, just couldnt control his temperature, So I got to sit with a good book in the nursery and watch him while my labor pt did nothing. I hate that. Go home then man.

Between working on my weekends I do try to get some sleep in there once and a good while. This weekend it seemed all I wanted to do was sleep. It seems that nausea kept creeping over me and that my head cold was getting worse. Every one keeps saying that I'm pregnant. I don't think so. You know those instincts that some mothers say they have that they just KNOW when they are pregnant- yeah I'm having the opposite of that. I'm thinking its not happening this month. I can't test till the end of the week but I'm pretty sure this illness is just me being sick.

So with my day on call in place, I slept in for way too long, I really should get on to the laundry. Making meatloaf for supper tonight.

I think i might go bust out the christmas decorations. I heart christmas decorations. Like Crazy.

Car seats Car seats and even more flippin Car seats.

I'm sitting  in a hotel room about two hours from home. I'm here because I'm attending a training class to become a Car Passenger Safety Technician (CPST). Day one is complete of a four day training. Today we did get to touch a carseat in the last 50 min of class otherwise it was learning everything you could possibly not think there was to know about seatbelts in cars and the airbag systems. Ugh. Lets hope that tomorrow goes on by as fast as today did so this week can fly.


I miss my puppy and hubby. O well. Here is to a fabulous world of carseats.

Can I just say that they make a cowprint car seat. Consider it already purchased.

I <3 cows!

The big O times two

"OOOOO I like that." I think I said this about, eh, twelve dozen times since I got my wedding pictures back. Its been so exciting showing everyone all of the neat poses that my photographer was able to capture. I am sitting at work as I write this with only one patient on the whole unit, but I do not have any pictures that I can share at this time. I Promise to load some up when I get the chance!

The secod big O is the dang thing called ovulation. Why must it be so evasive. I was so hoping that I would be one of those moms that would be lucky to get pregnant on the first month off birth control. But not so much. I'm trying to not worry about it but come on, lets be real, I'm freaking. I'm testing. Its all I can do at this point. Hoping and Praying for good news.

In the mean time, I'm going to go swaddle me a bili baby!

And let the games begin

I've loved babies as long as I can remember. I'm one of the lucky girls who met a soul mate that is just as much in love with the idea of babies as I am. There were numerous times during the 6 years prior to us getting married that we talked about starting a family. I just love the idea of a baby of mine to come home too. Working in a labor and delivery unit makes it really hard some days since I just want to take one home with me (*disclaimer- I would NEVER do it, just smile at the thought).

Well here we are. Married over a month. A savings account established. What better time to have a baby. But now that the time is right I'm Freakin man. Don't get me wrong I've started all the basic moves of the game... Like getting off birth control, buying test, putting dates on calendars. I'm ready. But then those small incidents happen. Like last night. I won't go into detail but lets just put it this way. If I was pregnant and needed to go to the hospital, or our child was sick and I was at work, we would have been screwed. And its moments like this that make me wonder if I'm even doing the right thing contemplating having kids. Other parts of me think that by getting a kid in the house we might alleviate these problems. Some would say that people rarely change, but I've witnessed a HUGE change in 6 years so I'm not holding my breath that he wont.

Deep down  my love for the idea and the need to start a family trumps my concerns in the end. So I purchased the ovulation tests, I purchased the pregnancy tests. I started the game. Now if only I'll get some positive results soon :)

I wanted to give it a try...

That's right, I'm going to give this blogging thing a try.

What's with the title- well, it simple. Its one of my 'moments'. You know those moments where you can do nothing but smile, feel all sorts of warm and fuzzy feelings, and overall are your happiest. I have many of these times and most of them involve my husband Travis but one that sticks with me the most is those moments where I'm sitting in the nursery at work (I work in a Birth Center aka Laboring, Delivering moms and taking care of the newborns) on my weekends to work (I work nights on the weekends). It typically very quiet, our unit is small, and I have just a few babies to work with but while the rest sleep there is that one that is fussy that needs some 'cuddles' in the rocker or at the computer while I complete my charting.

I can't wait to be a mom and spend those nights with my kids, but for right now... I'll settle for these particular nights in the nursery.

Work has been slow this week so I'm catching up on some of my post wedding stuff. We got married last month and could not be more happy. I can't wait to share more professional pictures with you. We have a lot going on for us right now and as I go through the weeks I hope to share the highs and the lows.